I'm inclined to wear my heart on my sleeve, which is a bit of a nuisance at times, but it does ensure that people are left in no doubt as to who I am. Having said that, there are times when even self-identity can be a bit of a challenge, for we find it really hard, if not downright impossible, to see ourselves with constant clarity. We make mistakes, do and say things we'd love to take back, and find ourselves bound by emotional knots of our own construction if we're not careful. Healing the wounds of life is a process that takes differnt forms for different people - for some, keys to self-mastery are frustratingly elusive. Others feel they have total control, cutting swathes through life with blades of steel. 

In recent times, it seems my life-work has aligned itself with what is known as the Twin Flame dynamic. In essence, this means I have identified the person who is my Twin Flame and assimilated many lessons that accompany this incredible journey. Along the tricky path typifying this experience, I have come to know that my Twin Flame has been influential in my life for the best part of four decades, working with me from his twilight position in "Shadowland" (where I couldn't see him, and had no idea he was present) since we met in 1982. I won't be identifying him, giving him freedom to stay there, for it seems beyond doubt that we will not be joining each other in union during this lifetime. That being said, in heart and mind we are rarely apart, which is also a typical situation for those who find themselves in TF entanglement.

In the knowing of this person, symmetries have come to light in positive aspects of who we are - artistically, spiritually, and vibrationally we are much the same. But certain polarities seem unsurmountable. We find conflicts in our ways of being which elude the element of compromise in being prepared to communicate openly and bring about manifestations of worth which compliment each other.  You have to give credence and respect to your strengths, to love and overcome your weaknesses together, and above the dark depths of the TF light war there are ways to achieve this waiting to be found. In 3D separation, where honesty and one's approach to life are seemingly juxtaposed, spiritual connectivity has a battle on its hands while at the same time making itself abundantly apparent, and we are constantly challenged to heal the layers of Self exposed by the cut-and-thrust of interdimensional gameplay. 

I wrote an article on the Quantumology.org site about Narcissi, those people for whom self-love gets out of hand. Their desire for control becomes an abusive form of power - they relinquish moral values in getting what they want.  For many in this situation, the level of self-absorption has reached destructive levels to become an aspect of Self they would like to address, and I would like to assist in this process for I firmly believe that we all have within us the potential to cross boundaries, to turn blame into a vicious circle of critical attacks, and to abscond from our higher purpose by fighting people who are not, for whatever reason, aligned with best intent. This does not mean that you should not love people who do not fit perfectly with your goals and aspirations. Far from it. The challenges of love's energy are tests sent to try us for a reason, and every test taken is another step towards self-realisation. There's no pass-or-fail marker, there is only time, a dimensional construct given to us by which to measure the breadth of our discoveries.  
 
Through the course of my own journey, I've experienced some surreal quantum laws in operation. I'm sure that many of you will also come to experience them as we move steadfastly into this new era of awareness and appreciation, a spacetime in which to explore and understand the energy of Love in contexts which have been unavailable to us before this epoch. Now that most people have an inkling of what the word "quantum" means, and have heard of some of the principles (Schroedinger's Cat is now vaguely familiar to many and the Uncertainty Principle is widely known to exist), the knowledge base can only grow exponentially. Whatever powers are at work here, the higher dimensions are finally opening their gates. We can be glad of the chance to walk through them. If you'd like to take part in the construct of this new reality, I can help you gain a footing on the road to this invigorating ground of infinite motivation. As can many others out there with the vision to blaze trails towards a future we are duty bound to co-create.

"i can fly higher than an eagle - you are the wind beneath my wings."    Bette Midler

​One of the most beautiful things in existence is confidence.
Not only does it get things done, it's sexy and intuitive and helps a lot in making good decisions. Confidence is what pulls us up when we've fallen off one of life's logs, it's what keeps our backs straight against the ravages of adversity.
And it tells other people that we're not a woosey doormat, even if at times we can find ourselves acting like one.

The ideal scenario is to have attained the level of self-management wherein you don't need anyone else to give you that sense of confidence, and nothing anyone does can take it away from you. However, in reality, the only people who seem to achieve such a state of self-support are those who care very little about other people in any case - not wishing to be political here, a few prominent figures spring to mind. There is a difference, I suggest, between the unconditional love we could be forgiven for seeking within ourselves, and the love of self which the ego would have us believe is great, while tearing our way through encounters and opportunities with talons firmly outstretched. 

Today's entry was inspired by a YouTube video appearing on a site run by someone I respect very much, and feel resonance with, who is gentle in her energetic manifestation and carries an essence of humility with which to identify, who runs a number of TwinFlame sites she works tirelessly to maintain, keeping them fed with fresh, relevant content. But this particular provision struck me as an example of something that might have been useful in one way, but dangerous in another. I don't usually watch videos when they're linked on my phone, but on this occasion for some reason I made an exception.
The lady being interviewed in her mystical head-gear was talking enthusiastically about her awakening, her ascension, her spiritual prowess and psychic certainties. As it was, I was waiting for some interesting revelations on the subject matter at hand, which fell short on the final analysis because I'd seen this kind of thing before.

I bought a book once, which described a spiritual journey taken by several people, detailing their adventures in a very inspiring kind of way. Investigating the authors, I paid one of them a visit by arrangement. She knew the story almost line for line, she related it to me then and there in her kitchen (with room for edit, of course - this was the 'live' version!). Then she tried to sell me consultations with one of her co-authors. In fact the attempts to sell me consultations continued long after I'd left her house. The book, it seems, was intended to 'catch' gullible people like me who believed what was written. Now, of course, I've very little reason to believe any of it was true at all.

In comment-conversations since yesterday's excursion, the subject of ego has seemingly touched a few nerves and I wanted to make my perspective clear on the subject. Maybe my ego took over when someone else called me to the computer..... we won't go into that. The baseline for me is that Ego - with a capital E - likes things best when it's in control. Sometimes control is valuable. You can manage your emotions better when you have control - you can decide how to respond to something before you react, and you can maintain a steady course through all kinds of challenge.
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You can also find yourself in a position to control others, and that includes being able to sell to them. Trust and selling have ceased to be synonymous with each other - if they ever were, if it wasn't all in my fond imagination. The point is, Ego strives for control, and while that can be a very healthy thing in navigating our way to the bare necessities of life, it's also pointed out that the bare necessities of life will come to you. So by definition, you don't need Ego to tell you where they are.

When we feel elated, we could say that the ego put us up there, but more often than not we feel that way because of other people. We feel that way when people give us credulity, respect, and love. We feel that way when our trials have been vindicated, when events turn out to be alright after all, when our box is ticked by something of significance. The happening might be belated - things rarely turn out as we expect, and never according to our pre-conception of perfect timing. In the final analysis, though, we usually find it's related to a greater scheme of things, this elation. We need connectivity to fuel our sense of lift, to get on the thermal and, if we're lucky, keep going on up.

If nothing can then shoot you down, does that make you a better person? Are you a better person than me because I cry at times and you don't? Am I better than you because I write stuff and you don't? No. I look for ways to keep Ego in check and I find them - some might say I find them too often. Each to their own. Whether or not we choose to admit it, we need each other. We have needs, and it's okay. How those needs manifest is different for everyone, and there is no right or wrong way to communicate. Touch is important, and there are many ways to touch. Perhaps that's why we've found ourselves on this spiritual journey. Maybe we're having to learn how to touch in 5D. Maybe we're having to learn about a different kind of balance now that 'mental health' is seen to require a little craziness to spill from our souls - the balance in ourselves that lets us recognise balance for what it is, appreciating that we can't always be expected to maintain it. Being free involves the making of mistakes - freedom demands forgiveness, the ability to let go, an open mind prepared to entertain the unexpected. Be gentle on yourself, no less than the trees and the stars, for no doubt the Universe is unfolding as it should.